2012….on your doorstep

Hello World
My last post for 2011
2011 has been a great challenge for me personally and professionally

So if I have to summarize 2011 it would be

Rocking & thrilling …
Met new people…learned so many things about human nature….

Challenging…
I got confirmed in my job have been assigned to a new unit where had and still have so many challenges

Sadness ….
Learn so many bad news about my dear ones…especially when you witness the downfall of people you thought you knew…


So for 2012 the do items on the resolution list will be:
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- Do my MBA
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- Find another job & quit for good the banking sector
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- Be more confident & extrovert
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- More time for my dear ones

I also pray that in 2012 the world become a better place to live…less war…less violence…less hatred…
less selfishness
On this I wish you and your dearest ones a Happy and Prosperous New Year 2012

Wonder Life....

Hello World....

Ever wonder how life would have been if ……
there was no vicious cycle of money...
no corporate world...no rush hour to work...or race against time...

You do not have to feel obliged even you do not want to wake up early and rush to work...

You do not have to compete with computer to save time & be cold & emotionless & be mechanical

You do not have to hear or face the abuse of your boss...

or even feel bad if you feel ill or is not introvert enough to match their needs.…

instead there would be flora & fauna mushrooming everywhere...

you live following your own rhythm... there is no rules & regulations...there is no KPI and performance

management....

You feel really free in your moves... you can jump in the air laugh & smile on the street....

and

feel good for what you are...

 

you can take the time to watch the blue sky...feel the heat of the sun on your skin...feel the breeze brushing you & breathe life....

 

and finally feel happy & at peace....

Seeking Escape...

Hello World...
patience is indeed a virtue....
 

if ever you had read about my post where i wanted to quit my job...
well you will never know what has happened since then...

 


surprise surprise...
the HR asked me if I wanted interested in joining another dept...
and of course I said YES....
but things aren’t that easy...
here comes the unwanted barriers on my path...
 

My actual head isn’t that willing to release me...
and that just enrage me that he can stoop so low...
the dept am joining will not be easy but somehow am very happy and relieved that i have found the escape door from this hellish department...
 

what I learn from this : 

never to take a decision in haste.... 
time itself will provide you with the solution... 
and always to have faith

cheers

Dilemma

Hello World....

I always think that life should have come with a manual or with a search engine ...



these days am in an impasse... taking a decision is never easy...

I don’t want to take a hasty decision … like I did in the past & live in regret

I’m right now stuck in the middle of my life journey… not knowing which way to choose...



cant deny am afraid...apprehensive...

life  is never easy...

the choice that I will take will reflect on my future... am still thinking on the pros & cons...trying to make out where I shall be in the future...



my big dilemma is whether to quit my job or not...

the job I had started to hate so much...which has become my own purgatory...


I hate the hypocrisy ....
the egoisms...
the unfairness...
the exploitation...
the coldness
& the inhumanity...



I no more want to
be tormented in my sleep with work...
where at every turn there is only reproaches..
where opening your mail inbox you are afraid there is going to be some very bad news...

today I no more have the strength to face all of these...
all my patience has faded away...

and I don't know what to do

The Call of the Ocean…

Hello World…

These days I am so tired and restless…till a state it’s so hard to find a good night of sleep and rest…

How I long for peaceful  reveries…

Somehow I found a point of anchorage in this bizarre routine of my life…between two dossiers at the office…
My office is located relatively near the harbor and my floor has a beautiful view of the harbor and the splendid sight of the ocean from the horizon…



So whenever I had to move along my department, my gaze will automatically linger to have a glimpse of the ocean and the harbor…

watching those ships anchoring or paving their way through the wide ocean…is like a animated painting with new portrays of ships being crafted with ever changing tones of the sea…illustrating the daily mood of the ocean…



I won’t ever forget the beautiful scene that the rain presented once …how the rain was falling with the dark grey menacing the sky and the ocean turning to a grey tone…with a lonely ship frozen in this picture….
I then wonder how it would be if I was on board on those lonely crafts …



following the call of the ocean….